Today is the toughest day i have ever been through. Im not going into details of it, but those involved know why it is so tough for me. today actually will change the rest of my life for good. it scares me. tomorrow will not be any better and will probably be tougher. im a fucking wreck. i dont know what to do. it just fucking scares me. i did get some good news today. i have a second interview for the new position i applied for. that is good. im really excited about it. i have to give a 15 min presentation on monday morning to the director of sales showing my presentation and informational skills. im nervous. it should be easy though when i finally get all the numbers that i need to complete the power point. im really tired and just dont feel like typing more and i also dont feel like watching the craphole tv shows that are on right now. no porn. no sportscenter. just shit on top of shit on top of shit. talk to you later.